A couple months ago, I shared with you how things weren’t feeling right. Post-pandemic life, some personal losses, and the state of the world sucked out (what felt like) all of my creativity…
After sharing this with you all, I felt so supported. So many of you knew what that felt like and were maybe even going through it this year, too. And although I usually pride myself on being the one to give YOU inspiration, you did that for me during that time. And I thank you SO much. One of the things that came out of my vocalization of my funk was the encouragement from strangers, my friends, and my family to go do something for myself.
I wasn’t in a position to go on some two week Eat, Pray, Love trip to Europe, but I did manage to take a long weekend to go to New York City by myself last month. Thanks to a friend who offered her apartment for me to stay at, another friend who offered to help watch my kids while my husband was working, and my husband who didn’t blink twice about being solo with the kids for a long weekend, all of those things aligned and it felt like it was a sign to take this trip.
And, it was just what I needed.
I spent a few days a city that I used to live in, so it felt familiar to navigate. Yet so much had changed in the (almost) three years since I had been there, that there was so much newness for me to discover. I spent the weekend meeting up with friends, eating lots of great meals, and just walking (a lot) around a city that inspires me so much. Connection with loved ones, food, and visual inspiration are always things that fuel me the most.
Did I come home feeling like I had answers to all the things that were bothering me this year? No…
But, I did come home feeling refreshed and grateful for all the things that are going well, and I returned with more confidence that whatever is unresolved will work itself out.
My creativity isn’t gone, it was just hibernating for a bit…which I am learning is okay, too.
So, I am sharing this with you just to remind you that as hard as it can be to do something just for YOU, it’s worth doing. It doesn’t have to be anything over the top. Just find something that lights you up and gives you joy just thinking about doing it. Sometimes it’s just the thing that will remind you who you are and who you want to be no matter what ups and downs you’re going through.
Photo by the super talented Max Wanger