For years, I never enjoyed the present. I was always looking to what’s next…my next set of goals, how things would eventually be if I worked more, harder, kept pushing. 2020 came with lots of emotions, change, loss, and a serious shift in my mindset. For once, I didn’t have that constant feeling of hustle because I simply couldn’t hustle in the same way I previously could. It felt weird at first…had I lost my drive? Did I no longer have ambition to achieve and grow? Instead of overthinking it, I let it be and enjoyed and appreciated the now. My family was healthy and safe during a global pandemic. I still had my business intact. I was able to be home with my kids while they did virtual school, and I could safely work from home. I had moved into the house I had been working on for the last several years. And, I was finally finding my voice on social media and speaking up about issues that mattered to me. Things were good. And I was present.
For most of my adult life, the idea of working your butt off beyond the point of exhaustion was considered the thing to do. I did it a lot, and sometimes I still do. Now, here we are in 2021, the year I thought that the “Joy that was” would come back because this new year held promise of a post-Covid life. But I happily find myself still in the present. When people ask me what’s in the plans for my business in 5 years…I have no idea. And I really don’t need to know. I am (for the first time) content with living in the now and doing what makes me happy day by day.
If you’re struggling with the “what’s next?”, it’s okay to be content in the now and doing what feels right for you right now.